Meet Me at the Crossroads

In my previous ramblings, I stated how I felt about being part of a generation with one foot in the digital age and the other in analog world. It isn’t easy. My heart belongs to analog but the practical girl in me realizes the importance of digital technology. What a tug of war this is!

At this point, my DLSR camera is an old gal. Still works, but she’s out of place today. I watch my peers shooting with beastly machines and applying trendy filters to their images and the traditionalist in me wants to scream. Whatever happened to A PHOTOGRAPH-just a well exposed (and PRINTED) image of a moment captured? That is what I love about photography. How I miss the days of the darkroom. It was magical, even when it went horribly wrong (light leaks!) I learned lots of patience from developing my own film and prints. Many of my warm, sunny Spring days were spent in a dark room with the glare of a red light and stench of chemicals. But I didn’t care. I developed my photograph – a moment captured and never altered.

I remember carrying my film camera everywhere. It was always around my neck. I made some of my best work during that time. I had only 24 exposures because film wasn’t cheap, so I had to use them wisely. I had to think about what to shoot, how to angle the shot and capture it correctly. Now, I slip my smartphone in my pocket to capture those moments. I am careless and fast because I know I can take hundreds of images and delete them later. And while I enjoy posting my photos on Instagram and this blog, they do not bring me the same joy. The image might be cool, but the quality stinks.

The pro cameras of today are heavy pieces of metal and plastic that have left me bruised on occasion. Imagine running after a child then coming to a complete stop and WHACK the camera catches up to give you a good jab in the ribs. Not to mention my hands and neck throb after a long day of shooting weddings. Where is their room for inspiration there?

I am at a crossroads now. Do I want to invest an absurd amount of money in a new bulky digital camera or do I invest a slightly less absurd amount of money to go back to film?  I would have to wait days or weeks to retrieve my developed film from a lab then of course scan the negatives to my computer myself….

What’s a girl to do….? Ponder I suppose.